really!?!

why is it so hard to accept the fact that i can treat myself kindly and not feel guilty?

for a basic start; here are a few things i would enjoy doing on a daily basis:
yoga at home
walks
eating very well
drinking more tea
reading
exercising
play my ukulele

and on a weekly basis:
home facials
hooking up with a girlfriend
yoga classes
hikes
gardening
dates
hooking up with friends

yet - i avoid it by sitting at the computer, eating junk food, watching tv, attending to non-essential items around the house.

and since the menopause - it's even harder to get motivated.  yet, my mind is daydreaming about all the above activities i'd like to do.

and is it really true i don't do them because i don't feel i deserve it or i am  uncomfortable with the wonderful post sensations?  seem logically silly doesn't it.  but it's a nasty conditioning that i've adopted.  yay!

i don't know ... but i do know that i'm going to get to the bottom of this and begin writing about it.  and i'll share with you now ... this blog is not written by a professional writer by any means.  my grammar and spelling can be awful to those you require proper English writing.

so it just goes to show - that writing about it gets 'it out there' and now i'm motivated to give the P90 a try.  off i go - i heard it will kick my butt.  i certainly hope so and maybe some of this depression too.

palms together for a happier world